If only is a phrase that had been haunting his mind for some time now. He knew that he couldn't change or fix it; there was just no possible way. But his if only’s would not let it go that easily. If only he had said what he felt that night. If only he had been there earlier and been there more often. He should have acted more relaxed about it, not worried or rushed. If only he could relive the past and change the future because of it. But in the end he was just left with the pain and the thought of if only.